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If I Survive You by Jonathan Escoffery
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If I Survive You

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Narrator Torian Brackett
Length 7 hours 59 minutes
Language English
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A major debut, blazing with style and heart, that follows a Jamaican family striving for more in Miami, and introduces a generational storyteller.

In the 1970s, Topper and Sanya flee to Miami as political violence consumes their native Kingston. But America, as the couple and their two children learn, is far from the promised land. Excluded from society as Black immigrants, the family pushes on first through Hurricane Andrew and later the 2008 recession, living in a house so cursed that the pet fish launches itself out of its own tank rather than stay. But even as things fall apart, the family remains motivated, often to its own detriment, by what their younger son, Trelawny, calls “the exquisite, racking compulsion to survive.”

Masterfully constructed with heart and humor, the linked stories in Jonathan Escoffery’s If I Survive You center on Trelawny as he struggles to carve out a place for himself amid financial disaster, racism, and flat-out bad luck. After a fight with Topper-himself reckoning with his failures as a parent and his longing for Jamaica-Trelawny claws his way out of homelessness through a series of odd, often hilarious jobs. Meanwhile, his brother, Delano, attempts a disastrous cash grab to get his kids back, and his cousin, Cukie, looks for a father who doesn’t want to be found. As each character searches for a foothold, they never forget the profound danger of climbing without a safety net.

Pulsing with vibrant lyricism and inimitable style, sly commentary and contagious laughter, Escoffery’s debut unravels what it means to be in between homes and cultures in a world at the mercy of capitalism and white supremacy. With If I Survive You, Escoffery announces himself as a prodigious storyteller in a class of his own, a chronicler of American life at its most gruesome and hopeful.

JONATHAN ESCOFFERY is the recipient of the 2020 Plimpton Prize for Fiction, a 2020 National Endowment for the Arts Literature Fellowship, and the 2020 ASME Award for Fiction. His fiction has appeared in The Paris Review, American Short Fiction, Prairie Schooner, AGNI, Passages North, Zyzzyva, and Electric Literature, and has been anthologized in The Best American Magazine Writing. He received his MFA from the University of Minnesota, is a PhD fellow in the University of Southern California's PhD in Creative Writing and Literature Program, and in 2021 was awarded a Wallace Stegner Fellowship in the Creative Writing Program at Stanford University. 

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A September 2022 IndieNext Pick

“[Escoffery] is, throughout, a gifted, sure-footed storyteller, with a command of evocative language and perfectly chosen details . . . Perhaps most important, he wields a disarming, irreverent sense of humor . . . [If I Survive You] makes me eager to read him for a long time to come.” ―Andrew Martin, The New York Times Book Review

“Not since Moby Dick has the all-American ethos of 'sink or swim' on your own been dramatized to such devastating effect. If I Survive You is an extraordinary debut collection, an intensively granular, yet panoramic depiction of what it's like to try to make it ― or not ― in this kaleidoscopic madhouse of a country.” Maureen Corrigan, NPR's Fresh Air

“Superb . . . If I Survive You stands out, and not only for its characters’ journeys and tender, searching themes; the collection is also a master class in technique.” ―Hamilton Cain, Oprah Daily

“Delicately crafted with irony and love, these linked stories explore the home and a sense of belonging in an age governed by the caprice of whiteness and capitalism.” The Millions

"In If I Survive You, the author brings a fresh, wry vision to the literature of self-determination. . . A ravishing debut. . . . Escoffery's fiction is marked by ingenuity." The New Yorker

"Short stories, ideally, evoke a heightened sense of attention: Crystallized more fully than novels, they allow the breadth of a focused stretch of time, with its layers and textures, to reveal itself. At their best, Escoffery’s stories do this, looping the reader into the heartbreak of fatherly rejection, into the desperation of needing just another 20 bucks . . . [If I Survive You] promise[s] more from a writer I can’t wait to see making books for a long, long time to come." ―Lynn Steger Strong, Los Angeles Times

"In prose that spans various voices and dialects―Jamaican patois, the Queen’s English―Escoffery illuminates the ties that bind its strivers to each other through pain, reckoning, arboricide, and maybe even redemption." ―Matthew Schneier, Vulture

"One of the most refreshing fiction debuts I’ve read in years . . . With effortlessly transporting language and characters that are unforgettable in their singularity, this book charmed its way into my heart, where it will stay for a long time." ―David Vogel, Buzzfeed

"It’s rare for a story collection to break out of the gate with as much buzz as Escoffery’s debut, but his linked tales justify the unusual attention . . . the author exposes uncomfortable social truths with fine details, wit and dazzling verbal versatility." ―Bethanne Patrick, Los Angeles Times

"Captivating . . . Escoffery’s sentences push boundaries and create a symphony of language ― breaking the rules of writing while showing his mastery of them. Each chapter takes on a different style, and readers may sense they were witnessing the emergence of a master stylist . . . a lovely and complicated portrait of masculinity." ―Adriana E. Ramírez, Boston Globe

"Remarkable . . . [there is an] immense talent on display in this debut." ―Cory Oldweiler, Minneapolis StarTribune

"[A] blistering new collection.... The stories... are all grounded in those pernicious, though darkly funny, ways people misunderstand each other." ―Jessica Zack, San Francisco Chronicle

"A revealing, often humorous and somewhat twisted collection of stories that are as engrossing as they are memorable . . . eight connected stories that shine a light on the fable and folly of contemporary life in the United States." ―Leah Tyler, The Atlanta Journal-Constitution

"There are plenty of signs Jonathan Escoffery’s debut is something special . . . But perhaps most impressive is the way these linked stories about a working-class Jamaican family living in Florida inspire a skillfully engineered emotional reaction. One left me floored, another broke my heart, and yet another made me gasp . . . this is literary fiction at its most engaging, satisfying, and affecting." ―Patrick Rapa, The Philadelphia Inquirer

"[A] humorous and electric debut." ―Katie Tamola, Shondaland

"At turns cruel and harsh, and tender and loving, this collection is a gut punch. It circles around race, home, family, masculinity, and the elusive, torturous American Dream; and all who are beaten down as they try to reach it. Escoffery’s prose is unforgettable." ―Jen St. Jude, Chicago Review of Books

"Both outrageously funny and a piercing look at life in America, If I Survive You is the kind of book you’ll think about long after you finish it." ―Real Simple

"This compelling set of interrelated short stories . . . [offer] unique insight into issues of race and belonging . . . A revelatory work, full of a young man’s questioning and told in a distinctive voice, this contemplation of identity, culture, and race in the United States today is highly recommended." ―Library Journal (starred review)

“A blazing success. . . . A profoundly authentic vision of family dynamics and racism in America . . . These eight stories are completely immersive, humorous yet heartbreaking. . . . Escoffery brings an imaginative, fresh voice to his deep exploration of what it means to be a man, son, brother, father and nonwhite immigrant in America.” ―BookPage (starred review)

"A sharp and inventive debut . . . [Escoffery’s] writing is clever, commanding, and flexible . . . A fine debut that looks at the complexities of cultural identity with humor, savvy, and a rich sense of place.” –Kirkus Reviews (starred review)

“Escoffery's debut of interconnected short stories confirms his already prize-winning status . . . The writing and characters are nuanced, with moments of brevity and humor but much more pain and trauma. Trelawny is a wonder, constantly trying to improve himself and yet battered again and again by his own actions or more likely, those outside his control, just like the ever present Miami hurricanes.” ―Booklist (starred)

“[A] vibrant and varied debut . . . This charged work keeps a tight hold on the reader.” ―Publishers Weekly (starred review)

“Escoffery doesn't shy away from the tough stuff. But he does it in a way that's so thoughtful, so vulnerable, so hilarious, so authentic, and with every word so perfectly placed to cleverly build suspense and intrigue and to matter, that you'll finish it within a satisfying few sittings.” Miami New Times

“Escoffery’s writing is lively and engaging, his stories well crafted, and he’s insightful and witty about Miami’s multiracial, multicultural, multilingual population. “If I Survive You” is a most promising debut.” Tampa Bay Times

If I Survive You is a collection of connected short stories that reads like a novel, that reads like real life, that reads like fiction written at the highest level. This is a compelling hurricane of a book that sweeps the past, present and future together into one inextricable knot. This is where Jonathan Escoffrey's career begins. There are no limits to where he will go.” —Ann Patchett, author of The Dutch House and Commonwealth

“Each story in If I Survive You passes a baton to the next, though it’s not for speed but for deepening. As Jonathan Escoffery's debut progresses, the characters layer, stories overlap, voices gather and the result is a moving and layered portrait of a family, at once wise and unflinching." —Aimee Bender, author of The Butterfly Lampshade

“Jonathan Escoffery's brilliant first book has some new things to tell us about racial identities, loneliness, and the search for love. It is so sharp-eyed and detailed that you feel that you are living through its scenes. The book is father-haunted and often very funny, and its prose is electric with intelligence. Somehow If I Survive You manages to be scary, humorous, and heartbreaking all at once. I loved this book.” —Charles Baxter, author of The Sun Collective

“These are superb stories about identity, family and place. There is a beautiful economy in the telling that never sacrifices the depth, complexity and richness of the worlds these characters inhabit. Escoffery's is a strong, much needed new voice in our literature.” —Percival Everett, author of The Trees

"If I Survive You is a collection of brilliant wit, real heart and electric humor. Jonathan Escoffery masterfully mines from his life and emerges, in this debut, as a talent not to be ignored." —Nana Kwame Adjei-Brenyah, author of Friday Black

If I Survive You is simply one of the best debut story collections I’ve ever read. Unmistakably original, improbably accomplished, If I Survive You earns Jonathan Escoffery the attention deserved of an important new author.” ―Mat Johnson, author of Pym

“It’s truly a feat that a book of short stories tackling such big stuff―family, love, violence, race―could be so damn funny. Jonathan Escoffery is a writer only just getting started, and his first book is a welcome reminder of what fiction can do.” ―Rumaan Alam, author of Leave the World Behind

“An electrifying, enthralling debut about identity and belonging. Jonathan Escoffery illuminates both beauty and trauma and the ways in which so many of us Jamaicans are still looking for home within ourselves. Told with humor and clear-eyed grace, this spectacular collection introduces us to an amazing new voice." ―Nicole Dennis-Benn, author of Here Comes the Sun and Patsy

“Jonathan Escoffery writes the Miami I know—where shimmering landscapes and glitzy neon give way to immigrant hustle, financial scams, and societal and family tensions gathering force quietly like the eye of a hurricane. Escoffery is a keen and witty observer with range and style. An exciting new voice.” —Gabriela Garcia, author of Of Women and Salt

"A magnificent debut collection. It's astonishing what Jonathan Escoffery accomplishes in If I Survive You. These stories are told with such grace, humor, insight, and precision that readers will want to return again and again. Escoffery is a writer to watch, and we lovers of literature are fortunate to have him." —Maurice Carlos Ruffin, author of We Cast a Shadow Expand reviews