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The Way I Am Now by Amber Smith
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The Way I Am Now

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Length 10 hours 37 minutes
Language English
Narrators Jordan Fisher & Rebekkah Ross

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Eden and Josh decide to give their relationship another chance in this much anticipated sequel to the New York Times bestseller The Way I Used to Be that “highlights with painful honesty the process of moving forward following trauma” (Kirkus Reviews).

Eden and Josh never had a fair shot at a healthy relationship. When they dated in high school, they each had their own problems getting in the way of the deep connection they felt toward one another. Unbeknownst to Josh, Eden was carrying the burden of a devastating sexual assault, while Josh was dealing with his own private struggle of having an alcoholic father.

Months after Eden and two other girls publicly accuse their rapist, Eden is starting college while her case goes to trial. Now when she and Josh reconnect, it seems like it might finally be in the right place at the right time for them to make it work. But is their love strong enough to withstand the challenges and chaos of college and the crushing realities of a trial that will determine whether Eden gets the justice she deserves?

Amber Smith is the New York Times bestselling author of the young adult novels The Way I Used to Be, The Last to Let GoSomething Like Gravity, and The Way I Am Now. An advocate for increased awareness of gendered violence, as well as LGBTQ equality, she writes in the hope that her books can help to foster change and spark dialogue surrounding these issues. She grew up in Buffalo, New York, and now lives in Charlotte, North Carolina, with her wife and their ever-growing family of rescued dogs and cats. You can find her online at AmberSmithAuthor.com.

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Reviews

"Jordan Fisher and Rebekkah Ross deliver the alternating points of view of this novel. Ross’s initial edginess captures Eden’s frayed nerves as she continues to recover from having been raped three years earlier. Still, right from the beginning, Ross also expresses Eden’s inner strength and determination to heal. When she enters college and begins a nurturing relationship with Josh, her voice grows stronger, even as she faces her rapist’s hearing. Fisher’s portrayal of Josh reveals his own sensitive points, but his steady voice mirrors Josh’s levelheadedness and unrelenting caring for Eden." Expand reviews
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